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I’ve been a little quiet of late. My blog’s not been updated with anything I’m super proud of since before Christmas, I’ve let my social media slip and I’ve just generally been hibernating away under multiple blankets among mugs of tea and a bunch of Netflix series’.

When I started this blog, I was so excited. Like, “three-year old let loose in the Disney Store at Christmas time” kinda excited. It’s something I’d wanted to do for a long time and after wimping out continuously, I finally plucked up the courage to launch Colour Me Copper. And to begin with, I loved every minute. Each time someone commented on a post or followed me on Instagram, a little wave of happiness went through me. To make it even better, I had friends and family texting, emailing and calling me to say how proud they were and how much they loved reading my posts. To say I was a happy bunny is an understatement.

And then something happened: I started to compare myself. Comparison is a dangerous sport and can be the undoing of anyone. I’d read blogs for years and had my favourites (Zoella, Carrie Brighton, Love Cats Inc to name a few) yet becoming a blogger myself meant that I discovered even more faves, and that’s where the problem started. I found myself spending hours scrolling through Bloglovin’ or Instagram looking at what other bloggers were doing and rather than enjoying my once-upon-a-time hobby, I found myself thinking things like “Why aren’t my photos like that?” and “How can I get as many Twitter followers as her?”. It was not good and ultimately left me feeling unmotivated, deflated and altogether a bit sorry for myself.

The problem with blogging is it’s such a saturated, busy market and one that’s been around for years. So when you’re a newbie, it can be a tad overwhelming. I’ve never been one of those (lucky) people that doesn’t care what others think. I’ve always been a people pleaser and what I wanted more than anything was for people to LIKE my blog. And that’s a lot of pressure.

So I took some time off. I went from spending every waking minute taking photos, manically making notes for upcoming posts and buying products to just sitting back and thinking about what direction I wanted to take my blog. Did I even want to carry on blogging if I was suffering with this much self-doubt?

Thankfully, the answer was YES. I do want to carry on. Why the heck wouldn’t I?! Blogging is such an awesome hobby and I love to write and take photos. If Colour Me Copper was no more, I think I’d regret it. So I’ve decided to not be so hard on myself (who else is singing Jess Glynne right now?!) and to give myself a break. I work 9-5 in digital marketing so I don’t have the time to spend hours and hours taking photos and writing content and building my profile and approaching PR companies. But that doesn’t mean I can’t be a good blogger. I’m going to take things at a pace that I’m comfortable with and write about stuff I love. And I’ll try extra hard (no promises though) to not compare myself as much. In fact, I want to become my own biggest fan. Arrogant perhaps but if I love my work and am proud of what I put out into the blogosphere, then maybe someone else will love it too?

Apologies for the rambly post – sometimes, a girl just needs to get some stuff off her chest.

xo

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11 Comments

  • Reply Laura Jamie

    I love your honest sweetie. Blogs have to be unique, that’s what makes them real and you’re doing fab so don’t apologise for having a blip, just keep doing what you love ❤️

    January 14, 2016 at 9:23 am
    • Reply emmahumphrey4

      Thank you for your kind words, I’ll keep trying and working hard to do what I love and make sure it’s all about me, not about trying to impress others! Thank you for reading :) xx

      January 14, 2016 at 9:56 am
  • Reply Amy Smith

    This is such a great post. I only started blogging in October and got off to such a great start and now I’ve hit a bit of a slump and starting to compare – leaving me wondering if a break would be a good move also. I’m glad you’ve decided to keep your blog going and you’re moving to a pace you’re more comfortable with – you’re readers will completely understand :)

    http://www.typicalamy.com

    January 14, 2016 at 9:50 am
    • Reply emmahumphrey4

      Thank you so much Amy! It can be hard at the beginning and motivation comes and goes but I think a sit back and reflection is a good place to start when you’re feeling like that! I’m hoping this year will be my year when it comes to blogging :) xx

      January 14, 2016 at 9:55 am
  • Reply Jess

    I feel with the comparison – I’d see heaps of bloggers with many more followers than me after a month of blogging whilst I was past the one year mark and think things like, “My content has photos and is more helpful, how come I have so little?” Those thoughts were the ones as soon as I thought them, it would feel like my brain was full of poison. I’m slowly but surely getting there, and I every now and again have to remind myself that blogging makes me happy because I get to share my hobbies with those (even if it’s only like 5!) people who read my blog, and if it’s meant to be my audience will grow! (:

    and YES to the being your own biggest fan. I learnt that it doesn’t matter how many people read your blog, it matters if you think that your posts are helpful and you enjoy what you’re putting out. All the best for 2016 Emma! (:

    – Jess xx | http://amessofjess.wordpress.com

    January 14, 2016 at 2:05 pm
    • Reply emmahumphrey4

      Thank you for your kind words Jess and thank you for reading! I’m glad I’m not the only one out there who suffered with self-doubt after the initial few months! xx

      January 14, 2016 at 6:00 pm
  • Reply Remie Worrall

    I’ve been blogging for four years and I can totally relate to this post. It’s so easy to compare yourself to other bloggers but you have a gorgeous blog so I’m pleased to hear you’re not going to give it all up. Looking forward to future posts! x

    January 15, 2016 at 9:30 am
    • Reply emmahumphrey4

      Thank you so much! That means a lot. Comparison can be a good thing if it keeps you motivated but can be your undoing so I’m trying hard to not let it be the latter! More posts coming soon :) x

      January 15, 2016 at 12:49 pm
  • Reply mckenzieros3

    I just started my blog, and I can already relate to most of these things that you’ve stated. I find myself comparing my blog to others, trying to make it better or I find myself wondering why I’m not getting views, and all that fun stuff. But I’ve also learned, blogging is much more than just views and comments. Although those are really nice! It’s about your heart and passion for this wonderful hobby that brought you here in the first place! It’s crazy what comparing to others can really do to someone’s emotions! I’m so glad you posted this, it’s such a real and genuine post! xo

    McKenzie | therosynook.com

    January 16, 2016 at 12:00 pm
  • Reply tazhiluxe

    Thank you for your honesty. My blog is only a week old and I’ve already felt a bit of this. Thankfully, the blogging community is super supportive and super nice, which makes me feel really good on the days when I wonder if I’ll ever achieve my blog goals. Thank you for putting up such a genuine post and I’m glad you stuck with it. I really do enjoy what I’ve read of your blog and plan to stick with it!

    Tazhiana
    tazhiluxe.com

    January 17, 2016 at 7:34 pm
    • Reply emmahumphrey4

      Thank you for reading :) Hope you find blogging as much fun as I do! x

      January 18, 2016 at 9:50 am

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