Halloween is just around the corner but I have to admit; I’m not the best at scary things. I don’t know what’s changed over the years as I used to be a hardcore horror movie fan but even Doctor Who gives me nightmares these days (just me?). Whilst I might be a fully-fledged ‘hide behind a cushion’-er, I still think it’s important in life to be scared by things.
Those that know me well, know that I sometimes suffer with anxiety and it can, at times, leave me too scared to try or do certain things. But if my adult years have taught me anything it’s that sometimes, being scared can be a good thing. By placing yourself in a scary situation, and surviving it, you’ve proven not only to those around you but to yourself that there wasn’t any reason to be scared after all.
Here’s a few things that I’ve been scared of recently and how I overcame them:
I’m not one of the world’s most athletic individuals and because I lack a certain amount of self confidence, I often find the gym a scary place, especially as a newbie. I’ve recently joined a new gym and so far, so good. But that first induction was really quite a terrifying prospect; I didn’t know where I was going, who I would be trained by, who would be in the gym that I might know and therefore feel self-conscious around etc. etc. But on this occasion, my determination to get fit and lose a bit of weight was all the motivation I needed to conquer that fear, grab my trainers and head off for my induction. I’m still not the most confident of gym goers and I’m never going to be the next Jessica Ennis but by not bailing and overcoming that fear, I’ve grown in confidence little by little and, shockingly, I actually quite enjoy the gym…once I’m there.
quitting city life
For years, I worked in London for a hugely successful, award-winning company. The first year or so was amazing; I was fresh out of uni and finally earning some decent money. I threw myself into city life and even lived there for a bit. But after three years, I was ready to slow things down a bit and work closer to home. The commute had got too much; I was spending next to no time with my loved ones and I was stressed to the max. But quitting was not an easy prospect. I was worried that I wouldn’t find a job that was as good, well paid or with equally lovely people and the idea of change was frankly terrifying. But when I weighed out the pros and cons of staying put, the right path was blatantly clear. And, to my delight, I found a job that was higher in position and closer to home. It is, hands down, the best decision I’ve ever made and I finally have a much healthier home/work balance in life. I just had to take the plunge.
joining the blogging world
Believe it or not, it took me weeks to work up the courage to launch this blog. I was so scared that people wouldn’t be interested; that people would hate my writing; that people might think it was a self-absorbed pastime. It wasn’t until my boyfriend reminded me that starting a blog wasn’t something to do for anyone but myself that I ‘manned up’ and launched Colour Me Copper. And I will be forever grateful to Toby for giving me the confidence boost I needed. It wasn’t until I started blogging that I realised a) how much I loved writing and b) how little it mattered if people ‘liked’ it or not. I’ve been overwhelmed with the positive response I’ve had from friends, family and complete strangers about my blog and whilst I’m trying extra hard to not compare myself to other, way more successful content creators, I’m inspired every single day by fellow bloggers that I follow and engage with.
There’s a quote by Simon Holt in his (rather apt) teen horror novel that I love: “If you don’t learn how to be scared, you’ll never really learn how to be brave.” I really do believe that it’s good to be scared every now and then, just so you can see how brave you really are.
What scares you? Let me know in the comments! xo